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Music has always been a really big part of my life. I love it just like I love writing, the main difference being that I will never create music. Right now my iTunes house 1547 songs…and it’s not enough. There are just too many good songs, too many great lip-syncable ballads, too many epic guitar riffs, too many instrumentals, too many film scores, too many JRock and JPop songs, too many rock songs, too many club-bangers too many everything. I always feel like I don’t have enough music.

But during my time on this Earth, I have collected some favorites. I will list ten here, because that is the challenge. But there are many more. :]

1. Don’t Rain on My Parade (Glee Cover) - Originally from Funny Girl. This is one of those songs that is just a blast because you can really feel a sense of joy and elation when you listen to it. I haven’t seen the original production that this song hails from, but it seems as if the song echoes feelings of victory, of taking central stage. I also love it because it makes me think of Glee, and Rachel Berry’s journey to the spotlight, which is just an interesting arc of television. It’s one of those powerful girl songs, the ones that require a fair bit of vocal skill, and I love it.
2. Bring Me to Life - Evanescence. I have 31 Evanescence songs on my iTunes. This is because they’re one of my favorite bands, so I knew I had to have at least one of their songs on this list. I struggled for a minute to figure out which but I finally decided on a “classic.” Bring Me to Life was really the song that made me a fan. I remember hearing it on that shitty Dare Devil movie and just being like “Wow! Can we replay that scene?” (I had the same reaction to My Immortal). It’s one of those songs that is intense and catchy with the always-melodic vocals of Amy Lee and sexy back up from Paul Mccoy from the band 12 Stones. This remains one of my favorites, no matter what.
3. Dancing on My Own - Robyn. “I’m in the corner, watching you kiss her. Ooh. I’m right over here, why can’t you see me? Ooh. I’m giving it my all, but I’m not the guy you’re taking home. Ooooh. I keep dancing on my own.” This song speaks to loneliness, and the strength it takes to be alone, even for only a little while. This means a lot to me, because if there’s one thing I ANGST about, it’s being alone. I’m told the line “I’m not the guy you’re taking home” is actually “I’m not the girl you’re taking home” but it sounds like guy, and I like to think it is, because I can really relate to that. There was a big portion of my life where I felt truly isolated from everyone around me, and every once in a while I go back to that. But songs like these make me feel like, even if I have nothing and no one, I’m still human and I’m still me and even if I’m sad, it can pass. I’ll keep dancing on my own. 
4. Neodämmerung - Don Davis. Götterdämmerung is a German phrase literally meaning “Twilight of the Gods.” This makes the title of the song all the more fitting. It was an original composition written for the third Matrix film (lets set aside any opinions about the quality of that film for a moment) and the segment of the film that it makes its debut is just that; Twilight of Neo. The song is one of those amazing pieces with the chorus and the instruments, and it just screams fightfightfightfightfightfightfightwin. It’s great to listen to when you’re upset, or when you want to get things done because it has this menacing urge to it, this feeling that if you don’t stop this evil, it will never be stopped. 
5. Cemetery - Say Anything. Say Anything is another of my favorite bands, and as before I knew there had to be a song from them on this list. Say Anything is a band characterized by clever wordplay and self-aware lyrics against bitter irony, self deprecation, and wit. The lead singer/songwriter—a guy named Max Bemis—is, in my opinion, one of the greatest songwriting minds of our time. Pretty much anything he writes is dripping with emotion and satire, and for someone like me; it’s delicious. Most of his songs are fast, brutal, and dirty. But every once in a while he takes a moment to go real slow, to let the emotion take over and take on an almost acoustic feel. These moments are some of my favorite songs. I picked Cemetery because I like the themes (death, the afterlife, meeting in death) and I like the sheer Awweee potential of it all. This may or may not be played at my funeral.
6. Colors of the Heart - UVERworld. Colors of the Heart is a JRock song. As the genre implies, the lyrics are almost entirely in Japanese. So as such I can’t blather on about the themes or the lyrics, or the band’s songwriting ability. I can only tell you that this song is catchy as fuck. Let no one tell you that the Japanese don’t know rock’n’roll. I first heard this piece on a favorite anime of mine—Blood +—it was the second opening theme for the intro, and it was amazing. The song fit the creepy visuals perfectly, and the sheer catchiness of it all blew me away. I knew I had to have it.
   
7. And I Am Telling You, I’m Not Going (Jennifer Hudson Cover) - from Dreamgirls. Alright, I’m pretty gay. I’ve never denied that I love musicals, and the 2005 Dreamgirls movie is actually one of my favorites, if only for this song right here. I’m not going to debate who did this song better, Hudson or Holiday, I’m only going to say that I really, really, really love Hudson’s version. I love this song because it’s like a break up in three minutes. The character goes through anguish, denial, and rage. She pleads for him to stay then whirls around to demanding he stay because she is not going. It all happens in one song, and it’s just violently emotional, and Hudson—autotune or no autotune—sings her fucking heart out here.
   
8. Monster - Lady Gaga. Yeah, there had to be Gaga. This song is pretty much about a dude (the titular Monster). I honestly love it because it’s catchy, and the rhymes are nifty. Plus there’s just this truth, because everyone knows this guy or has dated this guy. The one who serenades, rips out hearts and eats them (well, maybe not so literally). Plus, it just reminds me of Raymond. xD
   
9. Good Enough - Evanescence. Okay, well when I said “at least” I really meant “two or so.” This is one of those Evanescence songs that does away with the guitar and focuses on Amy Lee’s piano skills and her wonderful voice. I always love these kinds of songs, but I love this one especially because it’s so different from the general style of Evanescence. It really takes what a lot of people hate about this band and subverts it. This song does not mope. It’s almost…dare I say…happy? It’s tone is somber but the message it delivers is acutely joyous. It seems as if it’s about falling for that guy, the one you can’t really say no too because he’s just…himself. It details the self-aware cynic falling for someone. The tone of this is just so different from all that’s come before, and I love it for that. It represents a change of pace, and I’m totally behind it.
   
10.  Admit It!! - Say Anything. Alright, there had to be another Say Anything song. You know it, I know it. This one is definitely not one of their softer moments. This song calls out every hipster cliche in the book. Every lyric is dripping with hostility and sarcasm and the ecstatic elation that one gets when they mock the unworthy. This song clocks in at six minutes, and there’s a section where the lead singer calls himself out, but then uses his philosophy to justify himself and what his band does. It’s beautiful, it’s epic, it’s awesome. I love this fucking song. :D
    

• Showers.
• Money.
• Nerd references.
• Buffy the Vampire Slayer
• Boys who taste good.
• Art class.
• Best Friends.
• Greek Mythology.
• Girls with Super Strength.
• Queer as Folk.
• Psychopath characters.
• My room.
• School dances.
• Shopping.
• Dying my hair.
• Adventures.
• Knowing that I can rely on people.
• Listening to “The Last Angi Kai” from the Avatar soundtrack.
• Weeds.
• Drinking with people I trust.
• Being smart.
• Knowing you’ve got my back.
• Being in love.
• Burning your bridges.
• United States of Tara.
• The Tenth Doctor.
• David Levithan.
• The concept of divine beings.
• Being an atheist.
• Barrack Obama.
• The (hopefully) future legalization of marijuana
• Villain songs
• Avatar the Last Airbender
• Seeing movies with friends/dates
• [secretly] when my boyfriends (ex and current) call me Thomas.
• Skinny jeans.
• Drinking Starbucks.
• Lady Gaga.
• Books by Chuck Palahniuk.
• My companion kitty.
• Looking good.
• Writing.
• Magic.
• Being my own man.
• Television.
• Sleeping naked.
• Getting my neck sucked on.
• Hearing your heart beat.
• Holly Black.
• Evanescence.
• The way you smile.
• Talking shit with the friends who won’t tell on me.
• Partying.
• Good dreams.
• Chris Crocker.
• Say Anything.
• Being confident in myself.
• My family.
• The ones who treat me like family.
• Guys who aren’t afraid to shake their ass.
• My online buddies.
• MVCS, even if it wasn’t the best education.
• Being in high school.
• The idea of going to SF U.
• Miss Alekian
• Tom Milsom
• True Blood.
• Scott Westerfeld.
• Listening to music so loud that my mom worries about the state of my ear drums.
• Working up a sweat while working out.
• Going into a locker room and not being teased.
• Being gay.
• Knowing I’m liked.
• My miniscule popularity.
• Bill Maher.
• Facial piercings.
• Boys with an interesting look.
• Bizarre fashion.
• Literature.
• The L Word.
• The idea of a single payer health system.
• Surviving 2012.
• Sarah Michelle Gellar.
• Sketching.
• That the record for longest kiss is currently held by two gay males (33 hours, btw).
• When people challenge me.
• Tattoos. 
• Looking different.
• You.

Dance in the Dark and Monster by Lady Gaga. It was just so random.

It’s like I’m pregnant but instead of craving chicken and waffles, it’s two songs I haven’t listened to in forevs.